JOE MAY's Birthday

I woke up today with mixed emotions.  Normally this is one of the most exciting days of the year for me.  We have always celebrated our Libra birthdays on the Saturday night between Joe's and my birthday.  The fact that this year Joe is not with us hurts me more than i could ever explain.  The loss of Joe has created an emptyness within my heart that i thought i would never have to experience and will never get over.  Joe has always been the glue that bonded many of our friendships.  His death has brought many of our friends closer and forced us to realize the importance of true friends, and the fragility of us all.  When someone close to you dies people constantly tell you, "Everything happens for a reason", or "Maybe something good will come from his death."  That just does not cut it for me..... I want him back.  I think we all have a hard time controlling the tears, anger, and frustration.  I can't for any reason understand why someone who was such a Large part of our life could just be ripped away from us.  If that is not enough, how could such amazing people like Joe's parents have to deal with the death of both of their sons.  That goes beyond life throwing you a curve ball.  I know that nothing could ever replace Joe and Ed for Mrs. Selwyn and Mr. Allen, but those of us who live on will never forget their amazing sons, and will be there for them as long as we have air to breathe.  I can't help but think about one of the last great conversations Joe and I had at 4a.m. in his truck outside of Jenn's house in Athens.  We talked about Ed, how lucky we were to have our group of friends,  being in our 30's and just starting to figure out our paths in life. That night Joe said something to me I will never forget. He told me how jealous he was of the relationship I had with Jenn, and how lucky I was.  Little did he know that his world was about to be turned upside down (in a good way) by one of the most amazing people to come into his life, his Andrea, his Sunshine. She came into his life and made Joe oficially THE KING.  At that moment I never imagined that Joe would not be physically present at our 32nd birthday party.  I have tried so hard to be strong and positive, but sometimes it hurts so damn bad, and I am just angry.  All of us have been dealing with it in our own way, and at least we have one another, but i know that each of us wishes that we could be leaning on Joe.  I am going to do my best to celebrate on this day in honor of my great friend.  Although there will be an empty space at the party I know Joe will not be missing from the festivities.  He will be in every sip of a drink, every pig-in-a-blanket we eat, and every hip-hop lyric I scream at the top of my lungs, and in the eyes of his Andrea.  Joe is in all of us now.  That is something to be proud of....
   We love you and miss you KING CHANGY......(i hope you and ed are riding some dirt roads today)
           one love
                   john-robert ward II

 

 

 

the happiest i ever saw joe......ever

one love to DRE DAY.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOE MAY AND PASS THE CROWN